Monday, June 18, 2012

Mondays on Notice: Found Not Guilty

Blogger admission of truth: when I read (or write) posts about being too busy to run/train/exercise, I almost always (almost!) think the same thing--excuses. So it is with great hesitation (seriously, it's taken me all day to feel ok about this post) that I'm about to say this:
I have just been too exhausted to find the early hours to run more than about twice a week. 

Since this time last night, here's what my day has looked like:
  • From 10-11pm I fed the baby, washed baby things and dishes, straightened up the bedroom, packed baby things for daycare today, and went to bed. 
  • Woke up at 2am to feed the baby, take Big Brother to the bathroom.
  • Woke up at 4:30 to soothe the baby and coax him back to sleep, then eventually feed him
  • Woke up at 6:30 to soothe & feed baby
  • 7-7:45, breakfast and being a mommy to my two boys, getting everyone out of the house
  • 7:45-9:15, cleaning up the kitchen, packing up all my stuff, iron pants, shower, dress, out the door (how in the WORLD does it take so long?!?)
  • 9:30-5:30, work, stopping 3 times to, um...prepare baby food (sorry dudes!) and once to run home and back because I forgot lids for the bottles
  • 5:30-8, dinner, playing with Big Brother, and his bedtime
  • evening, paying bills, writing blog post, and, believe it or not, working--I'm up against a deadline
  • rinse and repeat, except tomorrow I have a work meeting that starts at 7:30am. 
As Kdot says, you can't work, have a little tiny baby, and keep up a serious hobby. Pick two of the three. That's the limit. 

Babies generally start sleeping through the night around 3 months. Some start a little earlier, some take well over a year. But until baby is on a somewhat predictable schedule, it's very hard for parents to be on a very predictable schedule. And we're exhausted. Exhausted. 

When I take a hard look at myself and ask if I'm making excuses, I have to find myself Not Guilty. I was a lot harder on myself when Big Brother was little tiny, and I learned the hard way not to be. So this is me saying heck yeah for starting back, however slowly. Saying heck yeah for fun runs, slow runs, and sleeping when I can. This is me putting guilt On Notice. 


Elle said...

Yikes, Mama, you are so busy, I am surprised you even have time to THINK about blogging!

MJ said...

Good for you! Although running takes care of you, there are many other ways that you need to take care of yourself too - both mentally and physically!

Run Jess Run said...

You shouldn't feel guilty at all. You've got 2 little ones and are working full time. Do what you can when you can!

Suz and Allan said...

No reason to feel guilty. You've got to put your family first.

Raquelita said...

One of the reasons that I may be a fence-sitter about children past my reproductive years is that I know how poorly I function when I am exhausted. You should not feel guilty at all for prioritizing the way that you need to right now.

Damaris said...

even THINKING about running with this kind of schedule makes you awesome (and a little more than gangster ::wink::)!

Black Knight said...

Don't feel guilty. You are really busy and you have your priorities.